Midnight Post!

I totally forgot to push post last night as I walked away from the computer!! Its almost midnight and that feeling of exhaustion has left...what to do??? BLOG (until my eyes get tired again)! I finally feel the doom and gloom of the holiday season lifting from me and it feels oh so good! See, this year marks the first year in the 26 years I have been alive that I wont be back in Alaska. That being said, I have no idea what this holiday season holds...where I will be...who I will be with...and those where the thoughts that were consuming me. I was letting the thought of being physically alone take over and was so NOT looking forward to the holidays. Is it still hard to think about? YES! Am I missing home? YES! Will I survive the holidays? With Jesus, YES!! My main prayer this past week has been for peace and joy in this season. I've been asking God to help me change my attitude, and you know what, He has done just that! I think I can say now that I have jumped on board with the rest of the happy holiday people! See, I think God has something special planned this year and even though I have no idea what it is, I'm excited! I think we all get wrapped up in the "worldly" view of Christmas. The perfect tree, the presents, the family dinners, time off work, santa, and anything else we can think of to make our holidays brighter. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying any of that is bad, I'm just saying its not what CHRISTmas is about. I have always known the true meaning of Christmas, but this year I feel like its becoming even more real to me in a whole new way. When you take away the tree, the stockings, the family dinners, and the feeling of being home for the holidays and all you have is you and God...it changes your prospective. This may be one of the hardest holiday seasons for me , but you know what, I'm gunna choose to already start thanking God for it! So, when I said I had jumped on board with the happy holiday people I wasn't lying....its just not the typical "worldly" holiday bus I'm on! Friends, my hope and prayer for you is that you find the true meaning (if you haven't already) of Christmas. I pray you celebrate...Celebrate Jesus and His birth!!